I am disappointed.

~translated from the Castillian~

I have just returned from another session with Ms Frost.

She tells me I should record how I feel as soon as I feel it. She says that it is "documentary evidence", whatever that means.

Right now, I am outraged. And disappointed. And disgusted. And saddened. And angry.

And yes, it's not the groundskeeper this time. I am me-angry.

She said that she would castrate me with a brick if I took my sport via "ungentlemanly means".
Can anyone who actually speaks English well tell me what that phrase means? I think the translator is broken, because if it means what it is translating as then I am going to have to do something terrible to recover this blot upon my honor. A de la Rocha does _NOT_ generate desires where no desires exist! It is unseemly and unsportsmanlike! If she were not a woman I would challenge her to a duel for such an insult!

I cannot be faulted if the passions that have smoulder unfelt happen to be flamed into an inferno of desire. It is difficult, but I have learned to accept it as my just due.

Besides, it's much easier that way.

I have NEVER enjoyed the company of a woman by compelling it. Never. Not even at my most desparate have I stooped so low.

I remain, disgusted,
Manuel de la Rocha

~translated from the Castillian~